02 January 2009
theres a boy, which barely talk ...
use to answer in "owh" ,"ya" ,"hmm"
never speak much more than 3 words in once
shall begin when his in 8 ,
which that year when he lost his mom,
the sorrow was like tons of
thorns pierce through the heart
as the time flow, he comes back to reality
but as hobby, hanging in shopping complex
was his favourite,
just by watching other's parent having fun,
while mom holding her child's hand
having some quality time,
simply by watching that for hours long...
of to full fill some imagination
that he craving for...
this unique hobby last till' age of 12
he started became a total "silencer"
barely speak, cause ...
feeling numb like he is
apart from this world,
everyone seems to be difference from him
the word "fun" ,no longer in his mind
everyone though he's a weirdo, pervert..
but ,everything is fine for him...
he get use to it ,
in his silence world, peace feeling
he keep in this situation for long time,
till' he figured out friends
do means something,
something cant be forfeit
but he have no clue of making friends,
he started hang out with cousin offenly,
which is very cheer up friendly,
with 1 kinda unique talking slang ,
he plan to mimic his style of talking ,
or his personalities to friends around,
he done good on the other clone of him,
after practice for long time ,
he don't know himself,
when looking at the mirror,
he saw no one, but a unknown stranger..
dizzy, confuse, sorrow was present
but he learnt to control
his minded though,
shout out loud will his way of releasing anger,
till' now ,the boy is 18
everyday with the smile on his face,
fooling around in crowds,
acting like clowns,
just to creates some laughters,
but he do actually feel satisfied
feel proud when people buying his joke,
he tried to hide all his sorrow
hope that joyful can overcome it,
cant! no way!
infact, people around got hatred on him,
feeling annoiying, disturbing...
shall he back to where he began?
