16 July 2008
is been a long time...we havent meet up till' now and yet u keep telling me ; be patient ... be patient... the time we meet shall come very soon ....hmmm...ok then... i wait! as long as u want! and... please find me! if u get any troublesome ... simply just a call and i will be there for u no matter what! im worry about u cause u live alone there... cant afford to lost u
i dare not to say out whats deep inside me... so i shall use words to express all of it
... As for me myself ...i dunno where i belong to... what am is suppost to end up with? i do really think deep in night b4 sleep or even in day light*day dreaming* i think that all the while... i cant actually find the right answer! cause i dunno what thingy that i really wants... and so do my personality... i always cover up my sorrow by joy and so i act clown act joker... just to hide something deep inside me... i hate that kind of"me" but the reason i did that ... simply because of prentinding that i dont really "need help" and sometimes act stubborn ... how stupid is that...
fortunetely, i do have joy "part of me" i love to tells joke and make laughters every but this was not pretending one's cause is joke "willingly" cause i like to watch ppl laugthing with the wide smile on their faces... when they happy , so do i ... am i a weirdo? i think yes it is!... its really feels so great when i share something good to friends or family , but as for family ...they feel annoiying and ignore me... but *still* i will comes out jokes more just to see thier happy face!~ =D
owh ya! the way i expressed out all the sorrow part ... simply just shout out loud! or sing some song out loud! fuuu... i tell wert! thats actually works... its feel so good~ thats way of releasing my stress... haha~
theres actually more... something...
if manage to remember i shall continue the next "episod"
